So, I'd just gotten a new job in the fall in management. The business was familiar, however, the title was not. Naturally, with all new jobs I'm uncomfortable with, I rebelled in my own quiet way. My mood became sour, my motivation levels went in the crapper. I was feeling rather upset and questioning many things in my life. I've had this feeling before, and it usually ties in with being uncomfortable in my surroundings. I want to get out as quickly as I can and get my life back where it used to be.
Getting out? Now, let's think about this. Seriously. Think about it. Give yourself a little time to adjust. I think it's quite normal to feel this way -- at least it has been for me. This ain't my first rodeo with feeling uncomfortable in the workplace. Long story short, things are trending up. Sparks of positivity are igniting, and the doom and gloom I felt no more than a couple weeks ago has tapered off due to familiarity with the job itself. It's a learning process. I knew this. But no less excruciating when you're going through it -- trust me, I had it rough. People were aligning against me, and my lack of knowledge was hurting me. Nice combo. But what it did to my creative side was sap pretty much all of my motivation from me. I did not write. And when I did it wasn't fun. It did not feel right. You know the meme or quote that says write under ll conditions? Yeah, right. You can't write under all conditions, especially when you're going through changes in your life that throw you way out of your comfort zone and into the dark abyss. A little melodramatic, yes, but nonetheless real. My writing is not out of the woods yet, and my creative edge is slowly but surely coming back. Yours will, too.
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Currently rewriting my feature script Christmasville. Last year I queried at least a hundred producers that were associated in some way with Hallmark Christmas movies. And while it got a few reads, I quickly realized that even though this was a family Christmas script that ticked a lot of boxes, it never ticked the most important one for Hallmark -- female lead. And romance! Oh well. So, as the polish continues, I've decided to tweak it again and set the Page screenwriting competition as my latest goal.
I feel the real work needs to be done in Act 2. Sure, there's fun and games and mysteries are revealed, but there is still something missing. However, I'm having a hard time narrowing that one thing down. Perhaps it'll just come to me from out of thin air? That would be nice. Stuff like that does happen every so often. And I've immersed myself in it, hoping to keep my writing chops strong, yet finding myself making mostly dialogue changes but not much in the way of story. Hey, readability is still a major key. So, if you feel inclined, Christmasville is posted here and available for you to read and enjoy. Would love to hear your feedback as well! |
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